I checked into a crisis center (for those who could do harm) so I could wait there until a hospital bed opened (5 days of HELL). Moses Cone Hospital decides to take a girl (who spent less than a day) before me. I have no health insurance for mental health and we are still paying on my hospitalization from 2 years ago. This girl has medicare (which the hospital would be paid immediately), just decided to stop taking her medication, she smokes crack and boyfriend does heroin. I felt lost and alone when this happened. Hospitals can choose who they let in and it’s all about the dollar. At that point, I no longer wanted to be hospitalized for fear of how I would have reacted.
The crisis center was nothing like I imagined. Bed bolted down was the only thing in my room, along with snot on the wall where my head laid. Meals were high in fat and carbohydrates fed to us on paper plates, on the dirty floor. I did not breath fresh air the entire stay. There were other patients with anger issues that would wake me up in the middle of the night screaming, ” fuck this, fuck that, I am ready to leave this fucking place.” On occasion, they would be placed in the padded cell by the police officer or security guard. There were teenagers who had to hear all of this too. I didn’t take a shower for days because another patient said she just had a miscarriage (wasn’t true) and shit on herself. This same patient was pushing my buttons and thank you to the police officers, they helped me from attacking her.
I spent 5 days without any medicinal treatment. What a waste of time. They kept telling me that this is only a holding facility. You would think that treatment for the severely depressed would start immediately and continued at the hospital. The doctor prescribed paxil for depression and oxcarbazepine as a mood stabilizer. Unfortunately takes weeks to see if anything works. I just have to wait it out and stay calm.
For anyone that can help with my hospital bills and everything else, you can send to
2652 NC Highway 62 East Liberty, NC 27298
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