I’ve had a visit to our family doctor since my last post of concerns with dizziness and lack of concentration and the diagnosis was Generalized Anxiety Disorder. “A Disorder” is definitely what I have been feeling for quite some time. The doctor also suggested a touch of ADHD. Much of the time I am in a stressed and in a panicked state which I considered a normal feeling until now. My work and my life are suffering from my inability to concentrate and remember. I don’t know if this stemmed from the death of my stillborn son or prior.
My doctor is wonderful and suggested to get a second opinion. I will do so if his diagnosis is incorrect. My husband came with me to the appointment to verify my condition. I am the multi-tasker moving at a much slower rate. The doctor just told me to keep talking about issues bothering me and why I had lost so much weight. I told him it has been a stressful year. I have this panicky feeling to get our finances in order for fear that I will die of cancer before my husband passes. I have temporary relief of a stressful situation after walking through it only to find myself worrying about the next. I analyze situations without knowing all of the facts and get myself highly worked up and upset. Other symptoms include:
- feeling of pin pricks on my skin
- hot flashes
- rapid heartbeat
- loss of appetite
- absolute exhaustion around 7pm
- grinding teeth at night
- thinking the worst of every situation
- cannot process verbal communication
- head spinning
- moving slow
- short fuse
- hit the floor running in the mornings
I am now on Lexapro, a medication prescribed to me for depression after Tanner died. The doctor said that Lexapro also treats patients with GAD because I assured him I was not feeling depressed. Unfortunately it will take 3 weeks to get into my system for some much needed relief. I remember being on this years ago and it really helped my depression. The one thing I disliked was the inability to cry and becoming desensitized. Crying for me is a stress relief. I will see what happens. Xanex is another medication for immediate results but creates a zoombie-like state, not condusive for work.
All my blood work came out negative for anything life threatening so we will work with what I was dealt. I know several of my girlfriends are on medication and I am wondering if this will be a life long commitment.
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