The next phone call was to my parents in Buffalo, NY. It was very early morning and I knew they would be sleeping when I called. My mother answered the phone because it is located on her side of the bed. With her sleepy voice said “Hello”. I did not sugar coat anything because of my shock and overwhelming sadness for the loss of my sweet little baby.
“Mom, Tanner is dead, he died,” I screamed to her in the phone. She said, “What!! What are you talking about? Where are you?” “Mom, they can’t find a heartbeat, we are here in the hospital” I told her. Looking back I think how absolutely horrible for her to be so far away and hear this heart crushing news. I wasn’t thinking about how they would feel telling them their 3rd grandchild would be born dead.
We just sobbed and sobbed in the phone to each other. I know there were nurses coming in and out trying to tell me what was going to happen next. I don’t remember this too well now. However, I specifically remember asking if I would have to undergo a C-section. They said surgery was unnecessary at this point and he would be born on his own. I was confused because this is not something I read in the pregnancy books. I needed to know how this would happen. Will I have to push for a long time? Will he come out in one piece? I just could not grasp this.
Peace Love and Hugs from Above www.justacloudaway.com
Diana
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The Birth of my Stillborn Baby- Part 4
hi my name is tyra and i just read your site and it just brought back so many memories. i also had a stillborn baby in dec 01, i was four weeks away from my due date.i know that it is really hard and its something that you will never forget. but just know that you are not by yourself. just know that your in my prayers.
lil angels
when god calls little children to dwell with him above,
we mortals sometimes question the wisdom of his love. for an heartache compares with death of one small child
who does so much to make our world
seem wonderful and mild. perhaps god tires of calling the aged to his fold, so he picks a rosebud before it can grow old. god knows how much we need them, and so he takes but a few
to make the land of heaven more beautiful to view.believing this is difficult still some how we must try. the saddest word mankinds knows will always be “goodbye”. so when a little child departs, we who are left behind. must realize god loves children angles are hard to find.
that was the poem we had printed on the back of our son”s obituary. i really like this poem so i thought you might would too.
take care, may god bless you and your family