October 15th has come and gone. We didn’t do anything special because this year was difficult. Year 3 was not too bad, but year 4 was different. Our living child just turned 3 and he is old enough to join us in church and behave. I love having him by our side to show him off. He is well behaved and is such a people person. So much that people comment on what a great child we have.
I know he is wonderful and I am so thankful to have him. However, when the kind words are given, my stomach knots up and I widen my eyes to make room for the tears that otherwise would be running down my face. Tanner should be here too. Tanner should be in church with us. Tanner should be receiving all of this attention.
The books always said there would be different triggers and come at unexpected times……………..so true.
Someday Tanner will be at my side.
Peace Love and Hugs from Above